Uncle Biek

And what helps even better is finishing a S.NL 1969 Grand Prix Legends competition race in sixth place! It’s been some time since I had so much fun with a competition race, I almost forgot it could be this way.

But now I remember :-)

Well what in a case of feeling down always seems to help for me is fiddle with a website or two, and this time it was one of my own I fiddled with. This very one, to be exact.

After changing the banner and some colour settings I finally got it looking the way I’d actually like it to look. So I think that apart from a couple of little details I’ll stick with this one for a while.

I like the lighter looks of it much more than the dark stuff I had before and it certainly does read a lot more relaxed. It’s easier on the eyes this way I think.

I suppose it happens to everybody every once and a while. You do something you normally like to do very much and all of a sudden you start wondering why you still keep doing that because for some odd reason it has not been quite that much fun lately.

Yesterday evening, while I was getting a whooping from Bas at the snooker table, I had one of those moments (again). And it wasn’t because he was winning all but one frames but for some reason the whole deal of snooker just didn’t feel that great anymore.

We talked about it a bit and generally agreed that it would be so much better if we were to play snooker just a little bit more often it would probably go much better.

And therein lies part of the problem folks, because I neither have the time nor a lot of money to do that extra practicing. I’ve been thinking about this ‘problem’ of mine all night and a little bit too this morning because I wonder where this negativity towards snooker all of a sudden comes from.

When I drove home last night I realized that the evening hadn’t even been that bad. I think that in the majority of all frames we played, the two of us together scored somewhere in the range of ninety to a hundred points which simply means that these were pretty good & solid frames, by our current standards anyway.

So, sure, last night I lost big time, in terms of frames, but not by much per frame so where does this uncomfortable feeling come from then? It’s a buildup of all sorts of small things and now that I’ve been thinking it over it’s not just to do with snooker. Even worse, I think that snooker is actually the smallest problem, if one at all.

It seems that lately I sometimes don’t have the energy for whatever I need to do. That being work, or snooker or even something like sim racing what I simply always love to do. I just can’t get myself motivated enough to get going at those times.

The mood I’m in differs from day to day. One day it’s fine, the other I can’t get myself to care about anything at all. So far I’ve not been able to find any kind of pattern or reason why but it’s becoming pretty irritating to me, to say the least, and it really, really gets me down. And what’s even worse is that it reflects on my friends and colleagues as well, who are about the last persons I’d want to bother with these things.

Something needs to happen, all I need to find out is what …

To be continued.

So what have been up to for the past couple of days? Well I’ve been in bed mostly, keeping everything as dark as possible and taking just a little more aspirins than is good for a normal person (or so it says on the box at least) to get my headache under control.

And today for the first time I felt like almost a healthy person again, headache is about gone too so things look better by the minute. Hopefully this will improve over the day some more so I can be me again. It’s been just a little too much this time, I really can do without these days for sure.

And boy do I need it this time. It’s been way too long since we’ve had a genuine race weekend and they tend to be so much fun so not only do I need the weekend in general, I’m also really looking forward to this one again.

Of course we’re going to do some racing again and it seems this weekend might hold a bonus for us. For our latest SIM, GT Legends, people are making the Nurburgring track which will be a blast to drive, specially with this class of cars.

I can’t wait to let an old Corvette or Ford Mustang loose there, the thought alone brings a wide smile to my face. If I was grinning any more the top of my head would probably fall clean off ;-)

You guys have a nice weekend too :-D